I have a confession to make…. Last weekend I did horribly and ate badly gaining back up to 214 lbs. Stepping onto the scale Monday morning and seeing that number once again was heart wrenching. I was down to 208 lbs the previous week and was feeling good. How did this happen?! I was on FIRE! Ugh!
I have been working extra hard this week to keep my binge sessions under control and pay attention to why I’m wanting to eat which I’ve discovered is mainly boredom. I will get my house cleaned and my regular mom duties, but then I’m left there pacing.
This week has paid off because I’m back down to 208 lbs. It’s been a VERY conscience effort all week, very mentally testing, but I think I can do this. I’m trying to train myself to not react on thoughts of food just because they’re triggered. I also found another old skinny picture and that was pretty motivating. I love remembering where I’m heading and what my body is capable of.
I haven’t gotten a workout in this week, but I’m not beating myself up about that. I’m really focusing on getting the eating part down and in control before stressing about the rest.
This evening we hung out with friends and I allowed myself a higher calorie intake than throughout the week, which is fine. I am human and humans are supposed to eat food!
I will return to a conscious effort tomorrow morning and I’m actually excited and starting to feel in control of my actions. I really think openly talking about my journey helps a bunch.