I have a confession to make…. Last weekend I did horribly and ate badly gaining back up to 214 lbs. Stepping onto the scale Monday morning and seeing that number once again was heart wrenching. I was down to 208 lbs the previous week and was feeling good. How did this happen?! I was on FIRE! Ugh!

I have been working extra hard this week to keep my binge sessions under control and pay attention to why I’m wanting to eat which I’ve discovered is mainly boredom. I will get my house cleaned and my regular mom duties, but then I’m left there pacing.

This week has paid off because I’m back down to 208 lbs. It’s been a VERY conscience effort all week, very mentally testing, but I think I can do this. I’m trying to train myself to not react on thoughts of food just because they’re triggered. I also found another old skinny picture and that was pretty motivating. I love remembering where I’m heading and what my body is capable of.

I haven’t gotten a workout in this week, but I’m not beating myself up about that. I’m really focusing on getting the eating part down and in control before stressing about the rest.

This evening we hung out with friends and I allowed myself a higher calorie intake than throughout the week, which is fine. I am human and humans are supposed to eat food!

I will return to a conscious effort tomorrow morning and I’m actually excited and starting to feel in control of my actions. I really think openly talking about my journey helps a bunch.


Author: Ashley

I'm a thirty year old engaged lady with a four-year-old daughter named Daladei! Nate and I also have two furbabies named Emmie (cat) and Tip (dog). <3 I've been blogging on and off for the past decade. Life is an ongoing adventure and I'm on an infinite body, mind & soul journey.

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10 thoughts on “Conscious Effort

  1. I did the same thing while I was on vacation last week…. You’ve got this!

    Posted on Saturday, August 20th, 2016 at 6:50 pm
  2. Good for you for focusing on the positive side – the important part is that you’re back down. AND for not beating yourself up over the workout portion — one step at a time 😉

    -Clarissa @ The View From Here

    Posted on Saturday, August 20th, 2016 at 9:28 pm
  3. you can do it keep going! its the same for me, i had some renovation going on at home and i had to eat out the entire week !!! 🙁

    Posted on Saturday, August 20th, 2016 at 11:04 pm
  4. You’re doing so great and thanks for sharing your progress with us!

    Posted on Sunday, August 21st, 2016 at 12:11 am
  5. I’m totally getting what you saying. Saw a pic of myself other day and totally didn’t like the muffin top. But instead of dwelling on it I looked up some workouts I can do at office and with my Yoga. Wishing both of us luck.

    Posted on Sunday, August 21st, 2016 at 11:07 am
  6. Keep up the great work! It’s truly a journey. Remember too to be kind to yourself, lady!! <3<3<3

    Posted on Tuesday, August 23rd, 2016 at 7:15 pm
  7. You got this! I believe in you! ^^ I too, am making a conscious effort to keep going!

    Posted on Saturday, September 3rd, 2016 at 12:44 pm
  8. I have a problem with binging at night. During the day I don’t really want to eat much, but as soon as night comes, I just want to eat and eat. I’m trying to get motivated to go to the gym here, but I feel like that’s the last thing I want to do. Swimming is more enjoyable for me.

    Posted on Saturday, September 10th, 2016 at 12:45 pm
    1. Oops I entered my name twice, lol

      Posted on Saturday, September 10th, 2016 at 12:45 pm
  9. I’ll admit, I am having my own weight loss issues right now too. Hearing your story is an inspiration, and I know that you’ll be able to get back down! Keep up the conscious effort to try and it will pay off!

    Posted on Monday, September 12th, 2016 at 8:52 am